Fair warning – This is for pet lovers only.
I recently lost my beloved companion of 8 years – Josie. Josie was a wonderful and vibrant mini-dachshund. Long hair. Black & Tan. Big Brown eyes that melted your heart. Now, my heart is broken into a million pieces. Josie was diagnosed with Auto-Immune Hemolytic Anemia, and lived just 6 days after her diagnosis. Six.Short.Days. and Six.Long.Days from hell for me. And it’s still hell.
As a way of trying to understand her diagnosis and to determine her prognosis, I dove into the internet. Head first. With Josie by my side. I researched AIHA endlessly. I started keeping a list of my observations so I could share them at our daily visit to the Vet. I’ll take you through all of those details later.
As Josie’s condition deteriorated, my list of observations turned into a journal for me to cope with and to somehow validate my feelings. Now, it’s become a way for me to chronicle her life, and to put into writing my memories so I can always look back and smile at the wonderful joy she brought to my life. In the grieving process now, I am trying to get through this unbearable pain. I am still feeling some very raw emotion. So far, a day hasn’t gone by that I don’t cry. Josie is still part of my day-to-day life, and she always will be. I know a day will not go by that I don’t think of her. She lives on in my heart.
So this is my journey.
I will have to go back to the beginning, so here we go…